Happy Birthday Rachel! I hope you have a great day!

Yay! I saw 28 Days Later last night! Now I finally know what you guys are talking about all the time... lol. It was pretty freaky, but I liked it. Oh and he is TOTALLY HOT!!!!! Lol. But I gotta go because my boss just called and wants to me go into work... yuck. But Im gonna go look at the hottie first... hehe.

Hey Rach, I was just wondering if we were going up north when were you thinking about doing it. Just curious.
Love Ya!

I got my hair highlited today and my hairdresser showed my how to do my hair. I have also been using those Crest teeth whitening strips, and they've worked a little, but I dont think a whole lot, (which reminds me, I should put them on... brb...)

Ok I'm back, hehe... Now where was I? Oh yeah, So there is basically a whole new me walking around. I haven't felt this good about myself in I don't know how long. It's been years, I know that much. It has been a very long time since I can look in the mirror and be happy at what I am looking at. I could stand to lose a little weight, but right now I really don't care, I like how I am. I feel great and it has given a whole new confidence about myself.

I cannot believe that summer is here and I have like three whole months off of school. That is INSANE... lol. Just one more class left on Monday with a test that Im not to worried about, because its not like a real final, it's more like a chapter test. I finished all my real finals last night and it's like this one ton weight has been lifted off my shoulder. Now all I have to worry about is grades, but right now I dont care because this semesters classes were hard and Ill be happy about just passing them.

I also talked to my boss about the summer and shes totally cool with me taking all my race weekends off and my family vacation week. I love her!!! Lol, she can be totally scary sometimes, but she is just so great with working with us and what we need that I dont think I could find someone better. We have been really slow lately and I think it is because of this weather, no one wants to scrapbook when it is so nice outside. And even though it's not good for the store, I like it when it's slow because then I dont have to deal with so many people... lol.

I finally went and talked to the counselor and she gave a bunch of good stuff about financial aid and Grand Valley, transferring to there next winter is looking more and more like a possibility. Right now Im not really looking at the stuff because I just want to relax for a little bit, but I will be looking at it more in the summer and deciding what to do with everything.

Long entry, but thats what seems to happen, I wait until stuff happens and then I cant shut up... hehe...

Im chopping my hair off on Thursday, not really, but I am getting it cut, and then Im gonna have my mom highlight it. Then I would like to look into teeth whitening things. This awesome weather is getting me into a makeover mood. It always happens in the summertime, I want to change things up, while during the winter I dont really care. I also need to start eating better and maybe get back onto a diet/exercise routine, (haha, how times have I tried this and it fails everytime?), we will see I guess.

Heres a pic of what I want my hair to look like (only blond):





what do you guys think?

I am so exhausted. Working life is hard, and I dont know how you guys do it! I made the mistake of putting off tons of math homework before I got my job and then when I got it, I couldnt find time to do it. This past weekend I didnt have to work but Saturday was my bday and had tons of family things to do and Sunday was my brothers Wrestling banquet. Time off just isnt real anymore.. lol. I kinda like being out of the house though. I cant wait until school is done, only like 5 weeks left!!!!

It's crappy but here ya go:

Wallace and Gromit the Curse of the Were-Rabbit DVD
Anchorman Unrated DVD
Grey's Anatomy Season 1 on DVD (This is kinda expensive though)



The Midnighters Series, Books by Scott Westerfeld
#1 The Secret Hour
#2 Touching Darkness
#3 Blue Noon
(I think these only come in hardback so they may be a little expensive too.)

If I can come up with anything else I will definitely post if I can.

P.S. Something is way wrong with my computer so I am stuck on the family one, so I wont be online that much for a little while.

I got the job! For two weeks at least anyways, I'm basically kinda working on a trial basis for two weeks. I'll be working at Scrapbook N More in Milford! It's not great pay, since it's a little store, but at least I'll be working with something that I like. I get a 15% off discount too. And THE BEST news? NO MORE BARN WORK!!! I think my dad is still expecting me to work out there, but it aint happening. I only had to work out there until I got another job, and I achieved that, so no way jose am I going back out there unless I want to. I'm a little bit nervous because I'll be working a lot with people, but if I'm too bad at it, it'll only be two weeks. I dont think itll be too hard, because when Im thrown into situations where I have to do things, I usually do them. I just can't believe I am so happy to be getting a job!

I have a job interview today! I'm so scared, its my first ever (if you dont count my bombed interview with the Beaumont Hospital thing). I really would like this job!

I have found THE best website to go to. It is so great, I could have the worst day of my life and this website would make me smile. If you guys have a bad day, or just need a pick me up go to this website.


http://cuteoverload.com/

Be prepared to go AW! a lot though... hehe...

Last night I went to the movies with my parents.. lame I know, but whatever. We saw Eight Below. It was a really good movie even though it was so sad. I even cried a couple times during it. Now all I wanna do is hug on my puppy.

Ive been reading alot recently, which is not normal for me. I have to read The Great Gatsby for my history class for a book report, but Ive been really into my Princess Diaries books lately so I havent started it yet.

I love how it looks so nice outside now-a-days. Its making me look really forward to the spring and the summer. Just wish it wasn't so cold.

I have been a faithful follower of the olympics these past two weeks, but now they are coming to a close and I am kinda bummed.

I know I don't update much, and you guys are probably wondering if I'm even alive cuz I havent even been doing myspace that much. I guess I just really havent felt like messing with them, I dunno. Not much happens around here, but it's my own fault.

I didn't get into MSU, but its ok because I am thinking about getting an Associate's in Graphic Design through OCC and then going somewhere else. I have the summer to really decide what I am going to do. My classes right now absolutely suck. Calc 2 is the hardest class I have ever taken. My chem grade isn't looking all the great either. My history isnt too bad because the instructor tries to make it interesting, but people and dates just do not stick with me. I just keep telling myself one more week and I get the week off. I am looking forward to that week so that I can just catch up on my work. So really its a week off of school to do school work.

I am really looking forward to the summer. After being cooped up in this house all the time because going places just does not sound appealing to me at the moment, I am hoping to be out all the time this summer. I cant wait until racing, at this point in time it is the only thing I really have to look forward to.

I have been trying really hard to loose weight, and during the week I do pretty good with exercising and sticking to my diet. But come the weekend and all I wanna do is be lazy and cheat, which is exactly what happened this weekend. Tomorrow starts the being strict again and exercising (which is something that I dread everyday but get through it but thinking that I want to look good for the summer). This summer is going to be different...

Ok, so I havent had one of my healthy obsessions for a long time. When I find something I really like, I like to obsess about it for a little while. I think it's healthy because I am always in a better mood when I have one and I cant even think of the last time I had one, it may have been when HP4 was coming out in theaters, which is a long time ago, but Friday night I received my newest one. I went to my bro's wrestling meet and came home about 8:30 and flipped on the TV. I flipped to the Disney Channel just to see what was on and it was there new "Original Movie" called "High School Musical" and I had been seeing TONS of previews for it and kind of wanted to see what it was, so I watched it. The movie was SOOOOOO cheesy that I loved it! It's basically a musical about cliques in high school and breaking out of them, which is a pretty over used movie topic, but I still loved it. All the songs in it are fun upbeat cheesy songs that are really easy to get stuck in your head. They are typical Disney songs, and I always get hooked on a good Disney song. I found out that they have a soundtrack to the movie also, and Im thinking about buying it. Hey, everyone needs a guilty pleasure, right?! It also really helps that the main character is really cute... lol! I know I'm a total dork for some of the things that I love, but I don't care, no one can take them away from me. And now I have it on tape so I can watch it over... and over.... and over again... hehe just kidding! Or am I? :D

I've been feeling really productive. Last night I started cleaning my room and I finished today. Yesterday I also did all my math homework, it took me forever! Then today I did my dumb history homework, and decided that I am going to hate that class. History is just so ugh to me. I totally admire Rachel for liking it. I dont know how you do it! I also started a diet again yesterday and have lost three pounds, so things are difinitely looking up. I've really enjoyed my days off, but now I have to go back tomorrow... icky. Im already hating school, the only good thing about it is that Im getting out of the house. This weather is the only thing really keeping me down nowadays. I love the winter and the snow and this winter has absolutely sucked. This rain day after day is awful and just makes you feel crappy even when your feeling good. I just wish it would snow.

Feeling a lot better tonight, thanks to PK. Love ya gurlie! Didnt do a whole lot. Just messed with my myspace for a long time. Tomorrow is the Lakeland Wrestling Tournament and I am probably going to be there for a good share of the day. Ive never seen my brother wrestle and I am hoping to tomorrow. Ive never seen him because his freshman year I was dating Teddy and I went to a lot of his wreslting meets. Shaun didnt wrestle his sophmore year because of his knee and this year I had class on the meet night and all the Saturday meets were so far away I never went. This semester will hopefully be a little different though because my mom said his meets switch to friday night and I can actually go. I am going to try a lot better to find some positive things to update this a lot more so im not always complaining... lol. Miss you guys an love ya!

I have finally been to all my classes. This semester is going to be a lot of work, something that Im not use to at OCC. My Chem class seems pretty easy because it's all review of what we SHOULD have learned in Bane's class, only the professor is WAY better so it all makes more sense. I really like the teacher. She's not from here and has this cool accent, which I knew before going to class and was worried about being able to understand her, but it's really easy and she seems really sweet. My calc II class I dont think I am going to like. We dont take notes, the teacher just photocopies his and gives everyone one and then he goes over them in detail, but I dont learn very well that way, I learn by doing so Im kinda worried. I can already tell my History class SUCKS! The teacher is pretty cool, but I just cannot get in history, and I have never liked history.

This week has been long and then last night I get pulled over, which completely sucked. I was coming out of the parking lot of OCC to the OCC road that takes you to the light (PK's probably the only one who knows what Im talking about) and the OCC police where like parked in the turn lane that goes into the parking lot. Well I stopped and looked and they kinda distracted me sitting there, but then I went. I look back and someone is right behind and I had no clue where they came from but I keep going. When I get to the light I look in my review mirror and the police are sitting there with there lights on, but then they turned there lights off so when the light turned green I went and he turned his lights back on so I pulled off as soon as he did and he pulls in behind me. I never really realized he was pulling me over because he kept turning the lights off and on. Well he asks me if I know why and Im like no, but I guess I pulled out in front of the car that I saw in my mirror and she had to "slamm on her breaks" and she "almost hit me"(his words). I truthfully never saw it. I saw light over on the hill but I should have been able to make it before that car came, so I sill cant figure out how I missed the car I pulled out in front of. It just basically sucked because I made one little mistake and of course he had to be sitting there. I didnt get a ticket or anything and the cop was pretty nice about it, but it still really bugs me. I hate it when I do things wrong and they totally give me anxiety for years. And it pisses me off because I feel it was kinda of the cops fault. His big SUV was sitting somewhere it wasnt suppose to be, kinda blocking traffic, somewhat blocking my view to see if cars where coming the other way different from the car that I cut off, and he totally distracted me. And I wanted to go before someone came from the way he was blocking because I wouldnt have been able to see them. I think that the car that I saw on the hill was probably the car I cut off, because she was probably speeding (because everyone does on campus, including me) and she didnt see me until she was right there or something and then had to slam on the breaks, which would still be my fault, but I think the cop may have been over exaggerating a little. Ugh, its just totally bugging me, but writing it has made me feel a little bit better. I havent told my mom or anyone because I just dont want to, and dont really need to because is was just a little mistake. Plus I think with all the wrong doings done to me on the road (and there have been way worse than cutting me off), I deserve at least one little mistake.. lol.

Grrr... Im still really upset about it....

My VH1 shows are on the TV!!! I'm so tired. I can't sleep at night but I have to get up early in the morning, damn chem class. I really need a nap before I go to my four hour math class tonight so I can make it through it. Im starting to get a little more serious about getting a job, but I just dont know where to go and work. I keep thinking that the movie theater would be cool, but I have heard from so many people that it's awful to work there, and they dont treat you very well. Maybe I'll just ignore them and try it, but I wish I could think of something else. Well I better go take a nap, theres no way im getting through the math class....

Ah, LJ only feels right while in school. I dont know why, but writing during the breaks seems pointless, except for summer of course. I was so anxieted about starting school today that I didnt sleep at all last night. I just kept thinking that I should just say screw college, get a medical billing certificate and get a job. I even got up and looked at the medical billing certificate OCC offers. It's only 13 credits, which is insanely small. I could take like two of the classes in the spring and then next fall I could finish the whole program. Then go get a job. But then what? I save enough to move out and just continue working as a medical biller, it just seems to easy and that really scares me. Plus I would still feel like I wasted all my hard work that I put forth in school to get good grades... ah, well... another day maybe I will figure out this "future" thing out.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEILA! LOVE YOU TONS GURL!

Merry Christmas Everybody!
Love Yas!